Friday 03.10. 2008, 10h13

I was born three times .

For the first time, 37 years ago, it took 12 hours . in a terrible pain .

I can remember the colours of flowers from my Mum’s garden

I can remember the shape of patterns on my Mum’s dress

I can remember my Mum’s conversations ...

I can remember I tried to touch life in my own way

I can remember bruises I got from from hitting walls ... in spite of opened doors

was running . straying . searching . finding . straying . running

I was born for the second time . 4 years ago . in Africa .
standing in the abyss of Victoria falls . I could feel nothing ...
being washed and fallen into a trance of thunder of water . I reached beyond ...

Running . Straying . Searching .... has found its direction

Its own strenght . its own perspective . its own colours . its own hues ...

It has found its own shape . of a DRESS .

And nothing is .. as it was before ...

Getting to the heart of your possibilities .. feeling the strength that makes you being born on your own ..

You exist . the most properly . the most fully . the most trully ...

Wolfgang Amadeus MOZART

Listening to the emotions he put into the score

I can feel how the undiscovered opens inside of me ...

The dimension of images is seen with different eyes

The space of emanating tones is reached with different ears

I’m stretching myself into a clearance

Feeling a breath of sounds being composed

I collect myself from its wind

Exposed to it . feeling my abyss

I compose my new self ... deeper . I exist more ...

DIRECTING OPERAS BY MOZART – this is the shape of my current expression
. linking colours . texture . motion . light . film . thought . human – I keep up digging ...

Yesterday . I was born for the third time . in the day of my Child’s 9th birthday .

My path . shape created for LIVING . mirror of who I am .

he consciousness of LIVING . the strength of me becoming myself being a part of the WHOLE ... it’s the space I carve with my soul’s senses.

AND ITS SHAPE IS OUTLINED WITH YARNS IN DRESS .

I am an exemple of ignorance . I am an exemple of a go-getter ... the power of my possibilities . of LIVING .